plastic.

It's days like today that slowly convince me that each person is as sincere as the smile they fake. People are so quick so say "hello" and give a friendly gesture, but at the same time, just as quick as they smiled they stab you in the back and walk away. If you don't like someone, why pretend you do? It just doesn't make any sense to me. Say what you think & act like you feel. I've come to a point in my life that I don't have time to go along with the monotonous games that we insist on playing every day...because when you really think about it, you're ultimately only fooling yourself. So yeah, from this point on I decided to be completely real. I have been for the most part, but something that took place today made me realize that maybe I don't come across as the person I really am. It's not okay to judge people based on a first impression- even though we subconsciously do; I think it's only fair to try and get to know the person before deciding you don't like them, or maybe you do. I know I've been wrong about first impressions before, so that means that other people ( especially ones at this school) definitely are. Give people a chance to show who they really are.

Nothing is ever what it seems.

People are never who they appear to be.People will hurt you and let you down. People live life for themselves. We are selfish, self-centered,vain, & careless. Some may be better at hiding it than others -but we all fall short. Yesterday I realized the reality of the human nature. We have such a built in defense mechanism. At the first sign of insult, in a matter of seconds we snap and lash out with a witty come-back. I don't believe anyone when they claim that words can never hurt them. Take it from someone who has been called every name you can think of. You may be really good at pretending ; but that doesn't mean they don't hurt.

I think that people try so hard to hide their feeling because they are so scared of others seeing them for who they really are. Behind the facade they put up, each person is hurting and broken inside- just like the next person. To be transparent is to be vulnerable. That means the potential of getting hurt. think that scares people more than anything. Including myself ; Lowering my walls in order to let people see me as the imperfect and flawed being I am, absolutely terrifies me.